Home is where i’m not

i remember how you used to say
all good things come to a very quick end
and i remember me crying when the best thing i had
just stood up and left me and never looked back
so i tried to forget how to open my eyes
but you came back and pulled on my sleeve
you came back and stood over me
and said “just forget me, because i’ll never stay”
and the one time i’ll say i love you , i’ll lie
cause you’ll never see what has happened to us
so i’ll never be, what you want for us
and you deserve better, it’s not an excuse
i’ll see you tomorrow or when the sun bursts
and you’ll look right through me and i’ll be in tears
and maybe you’ll see that i never meant
the words that i spoke and the things that i did
and you blame me for leaving you but i had no choice
and if i could do it all over, i’d do nothing the same
but i can’t take the words back that cut in your heart
and the lies you pretended to believe but you didn’t
because you saw right through me, yes you sawed right through me
and left me with nothing to do than to hate me
for bearing you all the lies i had hidden
i’m sorry for all the words left unspoken
because i truely loved you and i truely loved us
and i wanted to buy a house to make love in
but now you are home and home’s not with me
and now you are home and i want to be alone with you..

Gabriel