End new begin

The sun sinks behind the grey january-horizon,
The workingdrones stop their daily busi marathon,
I go outside and still experience this thing called light
Neon-, street- & moonlight, maybe not quite so bright,

Although I mostly choose to be cold & alone
Doesnt mean my fucking body is made of stone
Battles are fought daily inside my biological system
Still learnig, trying, reading, just crying for true wisdom

The Evil inside is now broke down to the core
Dont wanna play this weird clown no more
now that I’m finally left alone by the demons inside
Time to act up,no longer in misty smoke wanna hide

All supressed emotions now richly starting to flow
Not only sad tears, even ones of relief & joy, yo!
All these years that I’d hide that shit,
Made me physically, mentally sicker bit by bit

Innocent when pushed out of Mother’s womb
Obtaining sin on the fast journey to the tomb
Hunted shadows,was obsessed by evil powers
Damn, that just had to end in sleepless hours

Almost gave in to dark thoughts of suicide
Then I discovered my goal,worth a fight
Step by step at last I’m growing stronger
Hoping my life will last longer & longer!

All these realizations just makes me natural higher
The rotten bench of addiction thrown on the fire
Let it burn, reduce that shit to ashes & dust
Time to listen to my true innerfeelings & lust

El13